Thank God for His Word!!!

Scott and Kelli,
I am listening to you this afternoon in Mississippi. I heard about the girl about the suicide of her uncle. The reason I am writing is I have thought about suicide several times in the past two years. I am a Christian and for a long time did not understand why this was happening to me. I questioned if I was truly a Christian. At one point I was to the point of doing it I planned it out and was in the mist of doing in my car. There was a bump in the road and I hit it and when I did it jarred me back to reality. I realized what I was about to do and pulled to the shoulder of the road. I heard a voice I was the only one in the car and at that time the radio was off. It said "Don't do this I have plans for you." I drove on home not telling anyone what had happened for a while. During November of this past year I went into a dark dark depression. I was awful it was at this time my pastor encouraged me to go to a counselor so I did. After the first of the year I heard By your side on the way home from church. I knew that God was speaking through that song to me. That was the beginning of the climb out of the pit. A few weeks back Scott you had a person Aaron I think that contacted you saying he wanted to kill himself. I wrote on your facebook because I could not get through on the phone. I felt that God was wanting me to reach out to this person and others. I am a Christian and could not and sometimes can not understand why this is happening to me. I feel that God wants me to share my story with people especially Christian who deal with depression and suicidal thoughts.
I know that this is long but I still feel that he wants me to do this. God Bless!!! Stephanie Dunn

My 8 year old has leukemia.  I post to the Children's Hospital care pages to update our family and friends on his condition.  This is what I posted today, because of KLOVE.  If you would like to see more about my son, Genre, (like Henry with a G) you can go to www.carepages.com.  You can search for him by name:  Genre Baker.  You can also search for his site which is FBI or Firm Believer In (Jesus).  You can also see a video of him that our youth minister made at www.genrebaker.com.  Please take a minute to read this - KLOVE changed my ooutlook and my day!!!!!  Thank you!!!


FROM CAREPAGE:
It was so hard to take Genre back to the clinic on Wednesday.  Like I said, things have been so normal.  He's been so well.  On Wednesday morning I was up much earlier than the children.  I was scheduled to drop the kids off to Kristie at 8:30.  As I sat on the couch drinking my coffee I prayed, all the time begging God to let me know why we have to do these chemo treatments.  It will be three more years! I believe with all that I am, with every single fiber in my body, that Genre is healed.  The supernatural presence Genre and I experienced in the hospital during the first week he was diagnosed has assured me that my son is healed.  He is cured.  Now, whether or not God's hand did that directly, or he has used the doctors and the medicine- that is a debate that doesn't concern me.  It is done. What I know is that God allowed both Genre and I to feel His presence in Genre's hosptial room the Tuesday before they did his final bone marrow aspiration.  We both knew, without doubt, that the leukemia was gone days before the doctors actually told us.  There are no human words that can explain to you what was clearly not human.  I know that some of you are reading this and you are moved beyond words at the thought of our God letting some of His people experience His love and assurance.  Others are, right now, shaking their heads and wondering if they should continue reading these crazy updates.  It is what it is.  God has chosen this to be a struggle that Genre has to go through.  Our God has guided Genre and I through this entire process.  He has taken care of us every step of the way, and this is a post about how He continues to do so.

As I sat on the couch, sobbing and begging, I explained my pain clearly and repeatedly to the Lord.  I told him that I didn't want to start back to the clinic.  I didn't want to begin the treaments again.  I asked why we had to do this when I know Genre is healed.  I screamed in my head that Genre would be twelve when this was all done.  TWELVE!!!  I just kept saying "I don't think I can do this until he is TWELVE!  My baby will be gone by the time this ordeal is over. TWELVE is too long."  I just asked over and over for God to tell me what to do.  I begged Him to give me the strength to move forward with this - or let me know that we should be doing something else.  

I had no choice. I had to get up from the couch.  The kids needed to be up and moving so they would be ready to leave at 8:20.  For some reason, I went to my computer and I turned it on to check the weather for the day.  It would have been much easier to turn on the tv, but I went to the computer.  My email screen popped up and the KLOVE Ecouraging Word of the Day was highlighted.  I clicked on it and this is what it said:

Encouraging Word
Wednesday 9/30/2009

Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.

~ Romans 12:12, NLT

You can interpret that however you'd like.  It smacked me in my face and I lost my breath.  There are thousands of verses in the Bible and most of them are not 12:12.  TWELVE, TWELVE!  "Rejoice in our conifdent hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying."  I can do that.  I can continue on this path every day and I can be confident in His hope.  I can be patient with His help, and I WILL keep on praying.  In the future when I feel tired and alone, I will look back at these words and I will remember that God has given me hope, and He has commanded me to be patient and keep praying.  I closed my computer and I woke up my kids.  I smiled all morning and went about our day, assured, once again, that God is with us.

Genre was so positive and happy on the way to clinic and while we were there.  He said many times that he didn't want to 'start up' again, but he never acted any way other than his happy self.  His ANC was 1900!   (no meds for three weeks) Genre had a lumbar puncture to test his spinal fluid for abnormal cells.  They injected a chemo into his spine to help prevent any leukemia from  existing/developing in the central nervous system.  He was given a shot of asparaginase in the muscle of each leg.  He was infused with two different chemos.  He has dealt with the vincristine many times before.  The new drug is methotrexate.  That is the drug that can cause severe nausea and/or ulceration of the mucous membrane.  He has been experiencing nausea since Wednesday evening.  The nausea medicine helps for a while but it doesn't take it away completely.  He's also very dizzy.  If that continues today, I'm planning on calling the docs to see what can be done.  He was having a hard time walking to the bathroom alone yesterday.  He said everything is spinning.

Genre is now on a ten day clinic schedule.  He goes again one week from today - October 9th.  If the tenth day falls on a Friday, he goes Saturday.  If the tenth day falls on a Sunday, he goes on Monday.

Thank you, again, for all your prayers and love.  It really does matter to all of us. Thank you, also, for all the help and offers for babysitting.  It is all SO appreciated!