Mar 03 2010

The impact of "Changed Forever"!

I was driving in the car with my son, Alec the other day listening to TobyMac's new CD (at "blasting loud" levels!). His song "Changed Forever" came on and I turned the volumn down to "loud" and started telling him what the song was all about. The chorus says "Then I saw your face and I was changed forever." I told Alec that Toby is talking about the first moment when he realized just how much God loves him. All who are Christians have experienced that moment. I can't remember mine without crying. I saw His face and was changed forever! What is YOUR story? Tell us about the moment you were forever changed by the love of God.

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2/11/2010 7:12:53 PM
FAITH SISTERS IN CHRIST United States
FAITH SISTERS IN CHRIST
mine would probaly be when one day at Church the Youth Group (Forever Faithful) and I all gathered hands and prayed together silently in front of the Church! we just all have eachother! also one time when I asked Jesus into my heart for like the millionth time I can't even explain it, it was like Jesus was right beside me. I just felt His precence like He was a human in Church standing or flying beside me! I can't explain it! i am thirteen years old
2/12/2010 12:59:28 AM
teri barton United States
teri barton
hey im just 13 years od but you really sound like my mom and it makes me happy love you and god bless
2/12/2010 1:17:13 AM
Sheryl Knight United States
Sheryl Knight
During a very low time in my life when I felt so unloved (not because of those in my life, but because I could not forgive myself) I was standing in the back row at Church, eyes closed, singing during worship and when I was quiet God spoke to me. What he had to say was "I love you."
2/12/2010 1:21:17 AM
Analilia Ortega United States
Analilia Ortega
I had been going to a christian church for a couple of years and had been attending Celebrate Recovery for a few months. I had accepted Christ as my savior but I was still struggling with loneliness. One day as I was driving to work, I was feeling so very lonely and afraid of the future. I was praying to God to take these fears away. Up ahead was a one of those trucks that pick up trash and on it was a sign in big green letters that read "Jesus will not dump you". I started crying and could not stop but I was smiling at the same time. At that moment I knew that Jesus would never leave me or forsake me. That He would always be there for me no matter what was happening in my life. That all I needed was Him and I will be in good care. That He would always provide what I needed. I felt an inmense love for Him that I had never felt for anyone before. I continue to fall in love with Christ everyday and I look for Him everyday. I always take the same route to work and I have not seen that truck again. I know it was a sign from God. After that day I felt at peace about my future. He is in charge of my life.

Analilia
San Diego, CA
2/12/2010 1:22:54 AM
Charles Campos United States
Charles Campos
I was a broken man sitting in a car talking to my then sister-in-law.  I had just recently been notified that I was laid off, the landlord of the house I was renting foreclosed on his house so I had to find a new home, but above all that, my wife of five years and I had separated.  My world was coming down.  My sister-in-law seeing me in such light was moved to ask me to pray, something she really never did, reach out to others with her faith.  I did not know how to pray I remember telling her.  Before we parted ways, I gained courage to say my prayer which went like so, "Jesus, GOD, You know me.  You've always known my heart.  You know how I feel about You and You know my intentions.  And even though I have never done what You would have wanted me to do, I am here and I ask You to help me!"  My life was never the same from that point on.  Even though that marriage did not workout, I have since remarried and have been blessed with a baby boy, Ezra.  GOD is great!
2/12/2010 1:23:21 AM
Sarah Hamlett United States
Sarah Hamlett
I was just listening to klove talk about when the moment was that God changed you, and thought I would share my moment with you. I have always been a christian, but had an "ah ha" moment the other day in the car.My 11 year old son was being really down and moody. I couldnn't get an answer about why he was being this way. I said to him..." you have no reason to be so moody and upset all the time, you have parents that love you, you are taken care of, you have a roof over your head, and food to eat. You are soo blessed" And right then it hit me that, God was saying this directly to me! YOU have no reason to worry and be stressed! YOU are loved so much and taken care of....It was a very powerful moment, and I will forever be changed by that one concersation with my son!
2/12/2010 1:29:52 AM
Nydiaris Hernandez-Santos United States
Nydiaris Hernandez-Santos
I was born and raised at church and I always heard my Sunday school teacher telling us about the amazing love of God.  I was totally AMAZED by this and decided to serve God forever.  I was just a kid back then, but after that I was so thirsty and hungry for God; I can't explain it!!!  It was a big deal for me because I was the tallest (even taller than the boys), the biggest and everything else.  Realizing that God loved me regardless of how I looked made me cry and it still does.  I am 26 now and still cry when I think about how much God loves me.  
2/12/2010 1:36:02 AM
Stephanie Nida United States
Stephanie Nida
I just heard you say on the radio to tell the moment that we REALLY realized how much God loves us, and I cannot help but share my story! I am a senior at Marshall University in Huntington, West Virginia. A couple of years ago my philosophy professor was justifing his beliefs as an atheists. He said that if their was such a God He would be an infinite being. Humans are finite beings and therefore there is no possile way that finite beings can communicate with an infinite being. At that moment Jesus spoke to my heart and said, "That's why I came." I wanted to jump out of my chair and proclaim the love of Jesus! He loved us so much!He came as a humble little baby, He suffered as a man on Earth, was tempted by Satan, mocked by those He loved, and shed His life's blood so we could have a relationship with Him. I love Jesus and Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so! Smile
2/12/2010 1:38:42 AM
Stephanie United States
Stephanie
My "God loves me" moment was last year in sophomore year of high school. I was a real "love" fanatic. I had an iPod full of love songs, a mini library of books were love was the main theme and TONS of movies with romance all over them. But I was missing the whole point, the origin of love which was Jesus Christ. I was in geometry class reading a book (and not focusing on my work) about how Jesus loved me.

And everything in my life suddenly clicked. I ended up breaking down in the class, tears of every kind coming out of me. Jesus loves ME! I was really, truly changed forever!
2/12/2010 1:38:46 AM
Dan United States
Dan
I hope this is the right place.  
I do not have a glorious story about being forever changed.  I remember exactly where and when I made my decision to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior.  It was wonderful but not some of the breath taking stories/testamonies that many people share.  I was a believer before that day but had not made MY decision.  I was 17 at a YoungLife weekend.  I only know that it was at that time I really began my own path/relationship with the Lord.  Many times since then I have fallen and come back.  But I also know that I was always forgiven and no matter who or what else in this world, the Lord was always there, with me, loving me.  I just had to be there with Him.  My joy of the Lord is truly knowing that all these years I can see how He was there with me through all lifes ups and downs, strengthening and growing my faith all along the way.  I know that every single day He is there by my side and my loved ones.  I know He was always there before my decision but even more important is that since that time, that changed forever time, I have been growing.  Now some 43 yrs later I am still growing.  Our choatic world doesn't pull me away as much because I know even more now that the most important priority is my relationship to my God, my Savior.  I am just an average joe with nothing fancy but I have a King who loves me and has blessed me beyond words.
2/12/2010 1:42:28 AM
Kathryn Johnson United States
Kathryn Johnson
I had been a Christian for many years and I knew God loved me but I experienced such a deeper level of being loved by Him when after being diagnosed with breast cancer.  I told a friend it will be interesting to see how God uses this.  I wondered who He would have me sit next to during my chemo treatments so I could share the Good News with them.  She said that maybe this was a time God wanted just to love me.  It began my thinking to go in a broader direction.  I experienced and am still experiencing a greater depth of love than I could imagine.  I am now a 5 year victor over the cancer and am basking in the Love of my God & Savior and being used by Him to share His love with precious women in the Bible Study I teach.
We have a God whose love is beyond our understanding and yet He pours it out in Grace moment by moment meeting each and every need we have.
Thank you for the opportunity to share this.
Kathryn
2/12/2010 1:46:01 AM
libby fortin United States
libby fortin
God loves me so much that he allowed me the privilege of saving, now my best friend, life. All us teens were being really stupid and decided to throw him into a lake, because he was a freshmen. We live in Alaska, the water was really cold and his body went into shock. Thankful the other kids had put a lifevest on him before he went into the water. Through this event I realized that I was so loved.
When I went to join the group after everyone calmed down, one of the kids saw me and cheered my name and  soon everyone joined in. Scott one of the leader asked me if I was ok. I wasn't ok ,all the love and thanks that everyone was showing torwards me was over whelming so I ran and hid. But this girl Mariah came and found me and sat with while I cried and she told God truly loves me and so does she.
We went back to the group and 5 other girls came over and thanked me and hugged me. God was hugging me through them.
That is the day I realized how much God loved me!
After that day I have been changed forever!!
2/12/2010 1:48:32 AM
Kathi Pelton United States
Kathi Pelton
My story about the first time I realized the depths of God's love for me happened about ten years ago.  I had a very traumatic childhood which produced an eating disorder (bulimia) in me that had lasted for 17 years.  After a treatment center and much counseling (and salvation) I still found myself struggling with the shame of my youth and with the eating disorder.  Then one day, much to my shame, I was alone in our house and went into the bathroom to practice my eating disorder (to purge) and as I went to close the door (which was like an act of closing God out of this shameful addiction) the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, "Kathi, please leave the door open and let me come in."  Hesitantly I listened and left the door open.  Then as I bent down in front of the toilet, like I had thousands of other times, I literally felt the Lord's presence behind me.  Then I felt something as if the Lord was holding my hair back and heard Him say, "Kathi, you will never be alone, I will always be here with you to love you even in this."  I began to weep and His love washed over me with waves of such grace and mercy.  I was set free of a 17 year long eating disorder, shame and a wrong perspective of God that day.  His unconditional love overwhelmed me to the place of deep healing.  I have been free ever since and deeply in love with Him.  
2/12/2010 1:50:30 AM
Carlos Flores United States
Carlos Flores
Jan 16 1977, 10:30 A.M. As an 18 year old agnostic, I literally hated everything religious. A girlfriend talked me into attending a Catholic Religious teen retreat over the weekend. I couldn't stand being amongst the Jesus Freaks so I just sat there. Sunday morning, we were in Mass I was seated in the front pew between my girlfriend and her friend. Fr. Enrique Lopez, a wonderful priest asked us to quietly open our hearts to Jesus. He said no one would know what was in our hearts. So, in an effort to prove God did not exist, I said in my mind's voice, OK God, here's your chance, I'll open myself to you. At that moment, I felt an immediate physical transformation, as if cold water were poured into me from my head filling my body. It literally took my breath away. I was filled with the Holy Spirit and was given instant knowledge of the truth of God's love, His existence, and the truth of faith. I don't only believe, I know. These past 33 years, my life, my career, my family has been devoted to Him with His providential intervention happening on a daily basis. The miracles that day and those that followed are stories in and of themselves. Thank you for letting me share. Blessings.
2/12/2010 1:56:11 AM
Laura Krasinski United States
Laura Krasinski
I have been a christian seems like forever.. But, not always with a faith as strong as it is now.  When God touched me was when I was in the hospital after chemo with a 106 degree fever.. I actually felt him wrapping his arms around me and letting me know that I would be ok.. that was an amazing moment I will never forget. And my faith has continued to grow since then.. that was 13 years ago almost to the date..
2/12/2010 2:00:18 AM
Amanda United States
Amanda
I have been in church my entire life. I've gone through so much. Things no 19-year-old should go through. My best friend committed suicide. I was abused. My parents divorced when I was 16. Every person I've ever been close to .. they've left or died. And I've held on to God through it all. He's been so faithful. But I began to let go. One day i was on youtube with my friend and she had me listen to "By Your Side" by Tenth Avenue North. Right there was when it finally hit me that God really did love me.
2/12/2010 2:12:01 AM
Gail United States
Gail
19 years ago while teaching kindergarden Sunday School. It was the Sunday before Easter and I wanted the children to get a small idea of what pain Jesus suffered for us. I went out to my rose garden and cut a couple of branches to make a crown. As I tried to bend them they pricked my fingers. It really hurt! It was then that I realized that the pain that Jesus went thru to save me would have been unbearable for me, let alone anyone. Suddenly I felt God's presence like never before. It was as if I actually heard Him saying, I love you and I did this for you because of my great love for you. I know who you are and I love you anyway!  I felt like God was wrapping His arms around me. I have felt His presence ever since.
2/12/2010 2:15:06 AM
Diane Gagner United States
Diane Gagner
I was part of the Jesus Movement in southern California.  I was attending Calvary Chapel in Costa Mesa with Chuck Smith. I attended a Maranatha concert in Long Beach and they had an alter call.  God spoke to my heart to come forward and my friend encouraged me to go forward.  I said the sinners prayer, turned around to find my seat and was suddently filled with the Holy Spirit.  I'm Catholic and didn't understand what the Holy Spirit was.  I felt God's love wash over me and I began to cry.  My lips began to quiver uncontrobably for about 20 minutes.  God is my everything, for me to live is Christ!  God Bless guys.
2/12/2010 2:20:59 AM
Nancy United States
Nancy
Last April I went to our local coffee house before work. A local pastor's wife was there and what I thought would be a somewhat superficial conversation ended up in eternal salvation!

She lead me to Christ and, as I accepted Him into my heart, I felt an overwhelming and overflowing love, one I'd never known before.

This event is forever cemented into our minds 'Java & Jesus'!!
2/12/2010 2:33:46 AM
Kay Navarrette United States
Kay Navarrette
I was 14 years old, and just like most teenage girls my age I wanted to be liked by guys and wanted to be thought of as attractive and beautiful.  In my pursuit of this, I found myself in relationship after relationship, most meaningless, being that none of these would lead to anything long term.  As I was in one of these relationships, I was at my best friend's house laying on the floor and heard God say to me "you do not need boys to be beautiful; you are beautiful because I made you beautiful."  That was the moment that I realized my worth and value to God and as a human.  That was the moment I realized His love for me.  He changed me forever on that day, and it was the beginning of my true relationship with Him.  I found my acceptance and beauty.  I did not need to search for it any longer.
2/12/2010 2:48:32 AM
Debbie Lawry United States
Debbie Lawry
In answer to the question, "When was the moment you knew God loved you?" it took me a long time. I accepted Jesus into my heart when I was 2 1/2, but I've always struggled with a lot of doubt, especially that God loves me and accepts me just the way I am. A few summers ago, I was in the mountains with my family spending some God time. I was reading I John, a book that I'd never really "gotten" and had always frustrated me. And then, I read the verse that says, "And we have come to know and have believed the love God has for us" (I John 4:16). It struck me that if these men, who had spent time with Jesus and spent their lives getting to know God, had come to believe God's love--I guess they must be right! That truth I'd always wanted to believe fell from my head into my heart. I was so excited people kept asking me why I was having such a good day. I was filled with a boldness I don't usually have, and told them it was because I've always struggled to believe that God loves me, and I just found out He does! Now, it's still hard to believe it every day, but deep down, He keeps convincing me.
2/12/2010 2:51:20 AM
Mandy United States
Mandy
Changed forever! My dad molested me, beat me and called me names until I was 13. I went to counselors and psychiatrists, I took big anti-depressant medications, I tried everything I could try to reach healing. Years later, I married a man just like my dad. He was abusive to me and I caught him just before Christmas in 07 downloading a ton of child pornography. I divorced him and was even more broken than I ever had been. I moved home and my grandmother passed away a few months later. On her deathbed, she said that she wanted me to go back to church. So, in February of 09, I was at the totally broken point and didn't want to live anymore. I started crying and got down on my knees. That was the night I gave my life to Jesus. I received total, complete, amazing healing that night. Since then, I have realized that I didn't need counselors and psychiatrists or medication, I needed the Great Counselor! He has taken me from being a victim to founding the Louisiana Abuse Survivors Network and encouraging other victims of abuse to learn the true, total healing that God can provide. God is AMAZING!!!  I love my Jesus!!!
2/12/2010 2:58:14 AM
Wonah Oh Korea
Wonah Oh
I am 15 years old, and I was born in Christian family. I had prayed for more than one year to God that I want to go to Australia and go to wonderful school that is full of His blessing. And every single of my prayers came true. I went to Christian school and learned about Jesus. Although I was a Christian, I've never thought about Jesus before. But when I went to Youth Group with my friend, the Youth pastor taught us that we can get salvation only through Jesus. And he asked me "Do you believe that Jesus died on the cross and washed away all our sins?", but I couldn't answer 'yes' confidently, because I've never thought about Jesus' sacrifice on the cross and how He saved us. I just thought that I would go to heaven if I believe in God and go to church. So I asked the Youth pastor and my friends about Jesus. We talked about God and Jesus almost everyday at school, church and youth group. My teachers and friends around me helped me a lot, and I finally accepted Jesus as my Savior and gave all my life to Him. Now He led me to Denver,Colorado, and I'm living only for God and I want to glorify Him with all He has given to me. My life has changed completely by Jesus and I born a new life. I hope everyone in the world accept Jesus as their Savior and get real salvation only through Jesus. Someday, all the people in the whole world will praise God togehter and go to heaven with Jesus.
2/12/2010 2:58:26 AM
Monica United States
Monica
I remember when God changed my life. I was raised in a Christian home, I'm now 17 years old and a senior in high school. When I was 15, God baptized me with the Holy Spirit. From then on I started reading the Bible and praying so much more. But God knew that I hadnt realized something yet. Just this last October, I came home from school and fell on my knees, asking God for forgiveness and help. I dont know how long my prayer was but then a verse came to my mind, "Even while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." The verse completely changed my life and I jumped up and was so happy, went and told my mama that Jesus Christ is the best Man ever because He died for His bride even when she "cheated" on Him. Praise God.
2/12/2010 3:01:02 AM
JACOB PHELPS United States
JACOB PHELPS
i love toby mac!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you and scott are my favorite broadcasters!!!!!!!!!u guys rock
2/12/2010 3:01:58 AM
Billy United States
Billy
  I grew up in a Catholic household and even attended Catholic school but as a young man I walked away from the church and away from God as well.  In a way I was saying, "I can do this without Him".  My life has been a roller coaster of bad decisions and good decisions because of my choice to walk away.
  Through this time in my life I became married, we had a child, and the job market was plentiful.  But, because I excluded God in my life, I excluded Him in my marriage and because of that, the marriage to my wife has been filled with hurts due to poor decisions.  
  However, I believe God stepped in and said it was time for a reality check.  I was looking at an end to my marriage and no job and I got a call from a relative.  With that phone call and the visits between each other I reaffirmed my relationship with God and Jesus Christ, started my own business that has been helping sustain my families daily needs, my wife and I are in a process heading in a good direction. All this in the last year.  And I realized 3 months ago that God never left me.  I hit the floor on my knees in utter tears, thanked Him for the storms He allowed me to endure and asked Him for forgiveness and mercy.  Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father is in everything I do now; in my business, my marriage, and everything else in my life.
2/12/2010 3:02:06 AM
JACOB PHELPS United States
JACOB PHELPS
you guys rock what is kloves number?
2/12/2010 3:11:03 AM
jamie boyles United States
jamie boyles
Kelli,

I finally realized that i knew god loved me.  It was when a wonderful woman walked in the hospital room that i was in as i was waiting for a pacemaker replacement.  She kept coming back everyday and now she is my wife. she shows me everyday that god loves me as much as she does even though i disappoint her.

jamie  
2/12/2010 3:11:33 AM
Audrea United States
Audrea
I accepted Christ when I was fourteen but really did so because I was afraid.  The church I attended at that time seemed to focus on fearing God, and I saw Him as angry and judgemental.  I didn't want to suffer his wrath.  I never felt like I could please God and always felt as if I was failing as a Christian.  After 2 years of constantly trying to do what I thought would please God, I gave up and left that church.  For many years after, I could not even think about Him, much less pray to Him, because I felt that He would ignore me since I had walked away from him.  Then, two days before my 28th birthday, I was told I had malignant melanoma.  I was terrified and out of desperation, I got on my knees and begged God to help me deal with whatever happened.  I decided to visit a church that a friend from work had told me about.  The first night I attended a bible study, the lesson was on Phillipians 4:6-8.  I was stunned.  God was speaking directly to me, telling me not to be afraid, that he would give me the amazing peace I needed.  That was when I began to understand just how much God loved me, and as time went on, I came to see that the nature of God is incredibly loving, merciful and faithful.  He loves me more than I can even fathom!
2/12/2010 3:21:06 AM
Lauren United States
Lauren
I had grown up in a Christian family, but I had never really figured it out. All through high school I thought I was a pretty good person, and that was enough for me. I thought I didn't need a savior. When I got to college my life fell apart. I was sexually assaulted in early September, in the hospital with a 104.1 fever by the end of the month. I ended up having mono and couldn't get out of bed for weeks. My grades dropped and no one even realized I was sick. No one came to visit-- after all, I was a brand new freshman. I felt dirty, weak, worthless. I decided that if there was a God, I wanted nothing to do with him. Sitting alone in my empty room, I decided to join a team that was riding bicycles from Texas to Alaska to raise money for cancer research. Right before I left on my great adventure, my sister gave me a letter she had written a prayer on and I decided to throw an old bible into my bag. It was over a 1000 miles of cycling later that I realized God's love for me. I was in my sleeping bag in the sanctuary of a church where we were spending the night. I opened the bible to Romans 1 and it talks about how God allows hearts to be hardened and that the greatest act of mercy is for God to let people get busted in their sin so that they might repent and run back to him. I sat there in tears and realized that I was a sheep that God had used my freshman year to make me realize how badly I need a savior. I was a lost sheep and my shepherd had broken my legs to bring me back to the flock. It hurt, but it was such an act of mercy. I sat in that church and cried, so grateful for the merciful love of my savior.  
2/12/2010 3:28:55 AM
Deanna United States
Deanna
I was in a time when God was dealing with me over believing satan's lies, like in the song "Voice of Truth" that I could never do anything right.  God was telling me a different story, and that was not the way He created me. I was reading a book by A W Tozer and he made the statement "God is waiting to be wanted, by you." It was mind boggling to realize that the Creator of the Universe, was wanting my attention. Tozer also makes the comment that God is always showing off to get my attention. Tozer is right, all we need to do is stop and look around. Every sunset is a God original. I can only experience this because of what Jesus did for me on the cross.
Thank you Jesus!
2/12/2010 3:34:10 AM
Deborah Swainston United States
Deborah Swainston
My changing moment was when my 9 year old son was in the hospital who had been battling brain cancer for almost 20 months and now had sepsis and was very ill.  There were so many miracles during his illness it was a wonderous thing to be apart of.  But it was in the middle of the night and I was on my knees praying and crying and God said "Do you Love Me? I answered Of course I do.  And He said NO Do you Love Me more than Aaron (my son).  I hesitated and thought oh my gosh do I???  After a moment I answered Of course I do Lord.  He said to me then let Aaron come Home.  So the next morning I took Aaron home to his earthly home so he may Go Home to be with our Lord and Savior. Which he did the next morning.
2/12/2010 3:40:34 AM
Virginia United States
Virginia
I have always had a deep faith in God, But in 2002 I lost my sister to cancer.  We were best friends.  I was lost with out her, and I was raising her daughter (I have no biological children) who was a 12 year old who in the space of 3 years had both her father and mother die. Needless to say, I was totally unprepaired and I was angry at God for taking her away from her daughter and myself. I shut myself off to him, I dont know why, but I did.  Well, the past few years have flown by I went on and completed both my bachelors degree and my specialist/masters degree in counseling.  This summer was horrific for us financially, but we never did without.  Anytime there was a need for money, it would magically come out of the wood works.  The moment that I realized that God truely did love me was when I was talking to a friend of mine. She knew the struggles that we were going through and she had called me over to help.  I remember sitting in her living room and thinking God, you know how much we need to get us through my first couple of checks and I thought a number that I believed would do it.  Well, as if on cue, my friend wrote me a check for that number.  I sat there in awe and thought, God no matter what I have been through or what I am going to go through, you will take care of me.  Since then, my husband, who really has never gone to church in his life has started going to church.  I am in a job that I love, and we are both serving God to the best of our abilities.  
2/12/2010 3:40:56 AM
Lorilee Immel United States
Lorilee Immel
Hello,
At the tender age of 8 yrs old, i enrolled in a 54 month long bible correspondence course.  I was told to do it...I can't take credit - I thought I might earn God's favor.

You see, I didn't know God as a loving God.
I have been sexually, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually abused...and didn't even recognize the "labels" as a child.

My life was a journey in the pursuit of God, who seemed to want nothing to do with me.  I worked very hard to please Him and others...and never felt I had a relationship with Him.

One day, I obeyed a "nudge" from Him to talk to a woman at my church...I told her "I felt I was supposed to work with her."

As she began to mentor me, she shared the Formational Prayer model with me.

It was the moment I knew God loved me and my wounds/traumas were what stood between He and Me.

In the Formational Prayer model (which is contemplative in nature), I was asked to remember one of those particularly shaming events in my young life.

I had been made, by my father, to strip naked (in front of my siblings and cousins and extended family) and stand in front of a fireplace until my clothes dried (I had played in the snow without permission.)  

In Formational Prayer, as I remembered this sad and painful time, I saw Jesus walk in the room and wrap His arms around my naked little 6yr old body and carry me out of there, while His stare defied anyone to say anything.

In this simple, yet profound moment, history was not changed, but I was allowed to FEEL His love - which has CHANGED MY LIFE because
I EXPERIENCED HIS LOVE!  
He loves me because of who He is, He likes me because of who He made me to be!
Love,
Lorilee Immel



2/12/2010 3:42:46 AM
Brooke McKenzie United States
Brooke McKenzie
The first week of August in 07 the Lord spoke to me in the most powerful way that it totally changed my life forever. I was sitting there enjoying myself in a nice pity party while watching Dr.Charles Stanley and after the hour long show was over God spoke to me so powerfully through him that I found myself on my knees sobbing and thanking God for all of the things I was just feeling sorry for myself about.

Let's go back a little bit. My husband and I have always had trouble having a baby, and it was taking a toll on us emotionally. We actually had one child and trying for another and we unfortunately had another miscarriage, so we decided we would go back on fertility and try one more time and then I was done trying. We actually got pregnant and when we went in for our ultrasound at 8 wks the doctor said "yep, there is a pregnancy and then he said ohhh there is another pregnancy and then it got incredibly quite and he said there is another one too. At this point I told him to stop counting!! I felt like I was literally riddled with children. Anyway 1 month later after we were finally out of shell shock about triplets we found that we had lost the 3rd baby. Then at 19 wks  we were going to our appointment that would tell us what our babies were going to be. My husband and I were almost giddy to find out. The tech said you were having a little boy and a little girl. I was so thankful that daddy was going to get his little girl that he had been silently praying for but unfortunately he talks/prays in his sleep,so the entire house knew deep down he was hoping for a baby girl. Then these words I will never forget as long as I live. The tech kept moving side to side and up and down and then she just shrugged her shoulders and said "it is what it is". At that point we didn't have a clue what she was talking about. We immediately saw the doctor after the ultrasound and one of the happiest days became one of the saddest. The doctor said your daughter has a congenital heart disease and she has a couple of different defects. He set us up with a specialist 2 days later and we waited and waited out in the lobby for over two hours to talk to the doctor. I was not leaving, because at this point I just knew my regular doctor was not reading the ultrasound correctly. We finally got into see the new doctor and he said well, we have a little bigger  problem then her heart conditions at this point. I was dilated to a 2 at 19 weeks pregnant and was put on total bed rest. This news came on July 31st of 07 and I had a week long pity party and by August 5th I was literally thanking God for getting my attention and for all the troubles that he had trusted me and my husband to take care of. I felt that day we were chosen to take care of this special little girl, not cursed. I surrendered my children and  my pregnancy over to God my next 20 wks in bed (only was able to get out to go to the bathroom and to take a shower) was actually enjoyable if you can believe that. I had never studied the bible before and in this 20 weeks, I had plenty of time to actually read it from cover to cover.

Just in case you are wondering I made it to 37 wks and they were delivered successfully. She has had a few open heart surgeries and we will actually find out soon when her hopefully last one will be. Grace (her name for obvious reasons) has changed our lives forever. Who knew knowing your Lord and Savior could be so much fun!!
2/12/2010 3:45:35 AM
Maggie Free (12) United States
Maggie Free (12)
I Don't know if anyone here goes to NEKeswick, but every tine i go i relize how much Jesus loves me and i wonder that if I were to die would i go and meet Him. Also, the music on K-love has really broght me closer to Him. I Can't listen to any music other that k-love because my heart has been taught to listen to God ministering to me through the music. I find flaws that don't give God glory, and i have to turn it off. I've been reding the bible and through it is shown that God loves me even more.  And i hope that someday i'll be worthy of His love.
2/12/2010 3:46:49 AM
Jennifer United States
Jennifer
I was in a downward spiral in my life and was desperately trying to find my way.  On a particularly sad and desperate evening, I was sobbing and beggging God to help me through this pain and to never leave me.  Moments later, God spoke to me.  His words were simply "I will never leave you".  I became a new person that night.  I have never again doubted God's love.  What an amazing and unbelievable gift.
2/12/2010 3:49:45 AM
Mary United States
Mary
At age 23 I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Disease. The doctors gave me three to five years to live.  Being just engaged and looking forward to spending my life with the man I loved, I couldn't believe God would bring us together and then take him away from me.  I remember praying from my very soul, telling God I had waited my whole life for someone to love me as Dave does.  Please do not take him away from me now."  Instantly from head to toe I was on fire and then an audible voice said, "Mary, you will be just fine."    It took some time to comprehend what had occurred.  God became so real and He truly loved me!  I cried.

It has been 31 years since my last radiation treatment.  God has blessed me with four beautiful children and 30 years of marriage.
2/12/2010 3:55:55 AM
Caitlin Miller United States
Caitlin Miller
i have always cared about my appearence. but when i heard More Beautiful You. i understood that it isnt about what i wear. it is about glorifying God through what we do and think.
2/12/2010 3:59:23 AM
Paula United States
Paula
Long story short, I was changed forever three years ago at the lowest point in my life. I was having a hard time dealing with the divorce of my parents, moving from school to school, making friends and several other things. Things finally got so bad that I made the decision that I did not want to live anymore. I felt alone, unloved, and hopeless. But in what was supposed to be my last few minutes here, God showed up, scooped me up and has not let me out of his grip since! He has blessed me with his love over and over since then.  He has brought so many good people into my life that have supported me, comforted me and most importantly, loved me. I am continually amazed by His love and grace all the time. My relationship with Him grows more and more every day and I just love it! This past year was a rough year but with God, I made it through every struggle and I know now that with Him, I can get through anything. I really like the song ‘Bring The Rain’ by Mercy Me because it says "And I know there'll be days When this life brings me pain But if that's what it takes to praise You, Jesus, bring the rain" My life was a thunderstorm when God saved me, but that’s what it took to get me to him. So I praise him for it every day. He truly is so good!
2/12/2010 4:06:20 AM
Teri Cote United States
Teri Cote
The loss of my mom also meant to loss of my best friend & triggered the greatest crisis of faith I've ever had. Suddenly I realized that the "faith" I thought I had growing up in a Christian home wasn't my faith, but my mom's. I had relied on her so much when she was here on earth that I didn't exercise my own faith. When I came back from her funeral, my husband (at the time) did not allow me to grieve - I had to move on with life as usual. I remember sitting in the back yard in the middle of the night staring into the dark night & crying my eyes out, begging God to show me He is real, to show me that Heaven really exists & that Mom is there with Him. Night after night - 2 1/2 years - this went on. But one day I was driving home & my daughter just went nuts "look at that cloud Mom! Its so cool!" only it was blocked from my view. When I pulled up in front of the house & got out of my car, there right above our house, was this enormous cloud that had bright rainbows swirled in it. We stood & looked for a few moments & marveled at how awesome it was, wondering what on earth could have caused it. I went inside & spent a short time online trying to see if this phenomenon had been seen before - nothing! I asked my neighbors & friends - no one had seen it. Eventually, my heavy heart dimmed my wonder and the "incident" was all but forgotten. Then we moved to upstate NY - WAY upstate NY - like almost Canada. I didn't know anyone, had no friends or family, nothing to support me or help keep me going. I was very nearly suicidal. And that's when I picked up the Bible for the first time in almost 3 yrs. I must have read it through 5 times in my lifetime, but never front to back, & that is what I intended to do. It absolutely came alive to me! When I made it to Exodus, I realized that God hadn't been hiding from me - I had been RUNNING from Him! He loved me so much that He picked me up & separated me from everything I knew & plunked me in the middle of my own personal wilderness. He started to get my attention, but I wasn't quite convinced yet. I kept reading daily, growing my own faith daily, developing my own relationship with Him daily. Then, at the end of Ezekiel it happened. As Ezekiel described the appearance of God..."like a rainbow in a cloud, such is the appearance of the Glory of the Lord." Hook, line & sinker! I was done for! I was sent to my knees in humility. I was so ashamed that I had spent so long being angry at Him for taking my mom when all the while he was chasing me down. God gave me a glimpse of His glory 2 years earlier & I was too hurt, angry & bitter to see it. But thank God He didn't erase the memory of it, that He called it to my mind immediately & that He spoke to me directly through the words of Ezekiel written so long before I was ever even here. God LOVES ALL OF US. Even when we don't feel like He knows we exist. I will never doubt that again. The world may cause me pain, the world & the people in it may fail me. But not my God. He is MY ABBA & I LOVE HIM WITH ALL OF MY BEING!
2/12/2010 4:10:37 AM
Erica United States
Erica
My first, powerful encounter with God occurred at age 15.  I had been diagnosed with scoliosis, and it was becoming increasingly painful just to function in my daily life. I was very distraught.  The night of the diagnosis, I sat alone in my bed talking to God.  As I prayed in the darkness, an internal wave of warm, white light filled my body from head-to-toe.  I felt it concentrate in the soreness of my back.  Then, the pain was gone.  Now, 18 years later, I can say that I have never had another day of back pain from my scoliosis. I still have scoliosis, but it stabilized and never progressed.  I never required any treatment for my condition, and I am a mobile, normal adult.  I believe in the power of prayer...            
2/12/2010 4:17:22 AM
Mawnie United States
Mawnie
My changing moment was December 13, 2009.  Two and 1/2 years after I was told my husband was having an affair.  I was in a department store, when SHE approached me.  She can directly to me, in my space, actually.  She spoke to me like a friend, I was shaking on the inside.  She told me she was married and was expecting a child.  She went on with a broken voice.  She was asking me for forgiveness.  She told me how sorry she was and what a terrible person she was at that time in her life.  She went to tell me that I was the strongest woman she had ever met.  She said that I took her hands and prayed with her, during that time, instead of acting out in revenge and anger.  With saying that, please no I take no credit for the way I treated her.  On may own, I would have been screaming in anger.  God took control of my life from the day I heard the earth shattering news.  He held me tight and with every trembling day, he walked me through my emotions.  At the moment she ask for forgiveness, I knew I had to give it.  I told her I did forgive her.  When I left the store, I was crying, hard.   I couldn't quit thanking God for what he had given me.  He did not have to give me that.  So many people never here the words, Forgive me!!  At that moment, all the pain I was carrying was lifted.  For 2 1/2 years, the thoughts that raced through my mind, the pain, the fear, it was all taken and peace put in it's place.  I would like to finish with my Husband.... He is a Deacon at our church, he is a Sunday School leader, he tells me he loves me everyday, he is a changed man, a Godly man.  God had a purpose for the pain.  That was the day that changed my life.
2/12/2010 4:22:58 AM
Liz United States
Liz
I was recently married, recently had a baby girl, and my husband recently decided he no longer wanted to be a part of our lives.

I went to church on Sunday, Jan 31 and while there at World Mandate I broke down. While the preacher was calling everyone to the front for prayer he also asked if anyone had felt God really tug on their hearts or call them to him (God) he asked to simply raise your hand. He continued talking and asked us to raise our hands again, and while I was holding my 2 month old baby girl and sobbing with happy tears my right arm SHOT up in the air, and I knew things were going to change.

Feb.1, Monday, my husband came into the room to say he was leaving us. I was a little confused and sad, but all signs had been leading up to this. He was depressed and didn’t want to go to church or be a part of our new family. He showed a violent side I had NEVER seen and I knew he needed to leave, and so did I. I went to my mom’s house down the street. That night we had a very heated discussion on the phone- he wanted to take our car to Florida, and I wanted to buy him a plane ticket and give him cash. I was scared things were going to spiral into a horrible chaotic mess! I went to pray but was distracted, so I literally fell to my knees sobbing and praying to God to give me an answer. What was my next move?????

I saw a light on in the back closet and for some reason it was so distracting I had to get up to turn it off. On my way out of the closet I saw a little book of Psalms from when I was a child. I picked it up and turned to a page in the center that was strangely crumpled? It was Psalm 73, which wrapped up my horrible past, but the main verse the crease went through was this- Psalm 73:23-26 “Nevertheless I am continually with Thee, Thou hast taken hold of my right hand. With Thy counsel Thou wilt guide me, and afterward receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but Thee? And besides Thee, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

I ran downstairs to share this experience with my mom and dad. As soon as I finished the phone rang and it was my husband. He said, “Just buy me the ticket”, and hung up.

God showed me that he doesn’t just fill us with peace and strength, but he does give us direct words and messages! My husband and I are still separated, but I pray for him and share with him all the amazing things God is doing in my life. I know God has intricate plans for all of us, we’re just not meant to see them while they’re being worked out.

SOOOO many other things have happened since that Sunday, but I’ll share them later. God is SOOO good.
2/12/2010 4:40:19 AM
Carl Backstrom United States
Carl Backstrom
In 1997 we lost our 3rd child half-term.  Nothing was wrong with mom or baby, he just got tangled in his own cord.  Several days later while driving home through the canyon east of Albuquerque my truck broke down.  The truck couldn't be fixed and I had no cell phone in '97 so all I could do was start walking.  It was dark and it was snowing pretty hard.  
As I walked I cried out to God asking why this had happened to us.  I wasn't going to turn my back on Him, (where would I go?)  but I wanted to know.  Well, He answered me in a way I didn't expect and certainly will never forget:
Tears
You see: There are many things that happen simply because the world has turned from His plan for it.  The fact that He can work all things for good doesn't mean that He causes us pain on purpose.  But the thing that struck me the most is that Tim's death hurt Him even more then it did me.  I knew then that even though our lives and our sin hurts Him, He stays right with us because He loves us and He knows we need Him.
2/12/2010 4:48:54 AM
Lauren :) United States
Lauren :)
My family and I have always been strong believers, but it wasn't until a little less than 5 years ago, did we see the true feeling of the Holy Spirit.  5 years ago, in July, I was in a bicycle accident and suffered a traumatic brain injury.  I spent the whole summer between my freshman and sophomore year of high school in the hospital.  I came back a few weeks before school was to begin, and I ended up going back on time.  I am now in my 2nd year of college majoring in Occupational Therapy.  A crazy series of events happened that morning in which noone can explain.  The right people showed up, it happened in the right place, etc. etc. My family is stronger because of this event in which God's power was shown in ways that I have never seen before.  The struggles I have today allow me to know that God is still here, walking with me every step of the way. Praise God and know that he is always there for you Smile
2/12/2010 5:19:17 AM
Lori United States
Lori
Even though I was a practicing, devote Christian who loved God and who knew God loved me, I was 42 when I truly experienced God.  At age 42 and with our youngest child in Kindergarten, I had been diagnosed with breast cancer.  Five days after receiving that positive biopsy result, I was scheduled for a lumpectomy along with lymphnode removal...a surgery that would determine how far my cancer had spread.

On the day of my surgery at a St. Joseph's facility, as I was wheelchaired to radiology, I passed a Bible passage in silver 6-inch high letters on a hallway wall and was comforted as I read it.  After radiology, I was wheelchaired back to my bed near the operating room to wait.  The closer the time for my surgery became, the more nervous and scared I became...scared of the surgery, scared of finding out the results, and scared of the thought of my kids having to grow up without a mom.

A little later, as my bed was being wheeled away from my "trying to hold it together" husband toward the operating room, I had a frantic "deer in the headlights" look, and I felt like screaming "HELP ME, HELP ME, SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME!" to anyone and everyone...but I didn't because I knew no one could help me and that this was something I just had to face alone.

Then, just outside the operating room doors, from my moving bed, I spotted some 6-inch tall silver letters on the wall.  I couldn't read them without my glasses, but I knew the letters were a Bible passage...and they reminded me to turn to the only one who could help me at that moment.  I closed my eyes and began to pray, "God, please help me."

That was as far as my prayer got before God answered.  At that moment, God was with me...I felt His presence, as real as any healthcare worker's presence, surrounding me like a warm, secure blanket.  At that moment, I felt like I was floating into the operating room on the palm of God's hand, and I was instantly calm, free of all worry, and at total peace.

Upon arriving in the middle of the operating room, I looked around the room thinking I would actually be able to see God...His presence was that real.  And, it was then that He revealed himself further to me.  God laughed a fatherly, loving laugh--similar to how I laugh at my children when they do or say something ridiculous but cute--and He said something like, "All humans that I reveal myself to do that."  I was so surprised at hearing His laughter and voice inside my head, just as loud and clear as any human voice in the operating room, that I forgot to remember His exact words.  Then, I smiled as the operating room personnel put me under because I knew I was in good hands...God's hands...and I wasn't alone.  No matter how things turned out, I knew the outcome would be part of God's master plan for my life.

God was with me every step of the way throughout my entire cancer treatment.  I'm now over 4 years cancer free, and I still deeply feel His presence and His love in my life daily.  Cancer turned out to be my biggest blessing.  Although I didn't literally "see" God, I "saw His face" by feeling His presence and hearing His laughter and voice, and He changed my life forever.
2/12/2010 10:25:27 AM
Lori Hinners United States
Lori Hinners
In retrospect there are so many ways God has shown His extravagant love to me.  I first became ultra aware of how intimately and personally God loves me after a devastating realization that me and my family were being permanently ostracized from my immediate family (Mom, siblings, nieces, nephews, etc.).  I had just gotten an e-mail that drove that point home.  The next day, in a stunned state of shock I wandered into a secular bookstore, Borders.  After checking out with the cashier, I thanked her because she gave me the Borders'
rewards and it was if God was speaking directly through her to me and to the deep pain and wound I had at the time.  She said "That's alright, you're already favored anyway."  It was as if I immediately knew that was God tending to my destroyed heart and letting me know that although I was forever out of favor with my family, I was then and always in God's favor.  It didn't escape me that what the cashier said was completely out of the ordinary.  I even brought a friend back a few weeks later to verify that I hadn't hallucinated.  Many, many encounters later God has used this painful estrangement to draw me closer to Him and show me His love and grace.
2/12/2010 10:47:10 AM
Marie Garcia United States
Marie Garcia
As soon as I heard Kelly ask the question regarding how God has changed you, I immediately was transported (in spirit) to that one moment in time when my world stood still as I visited with the poorest of the poor in Nicaragua on a mission trip.  I, and a group of 18 other persons, went to visit with and feed families living in shanty homes in a garbage dump.  As I talked to the many people there and saw their beautiful faces, smiles of gratitude and above all, their amazing FAITH and LOVE of God sharing with me their hope of one day "leaving this place and having a better life" I was humbled as I witnessed their amazing joy for life and faith in God...despite the poverty they lived in.  As I walked amidst them, a 7-9 month old child extended her arms asking me to take her from her mother's arms.  I was so HONORED that a child, so close to God, would want to come into my arms.  I gladly held her and then it happened...as she smiled at me, I felt the love of God shine through that girl's face onto me.  I looked around and felt an overflowing LOVE for these people!  And I felt that for a moment God allowed me to enter His heart and understand and feel how much God LOVES the poor and me too!  It's hard to put into words but for a moment I was the one being carried by God as I carried that beautiful baby girl!  As I write this testimony, my eyes are filled with tears of joy and my heart overflows with GOD's LOVE once again!  Thank you for helping me relive this memory and feel GOD'S love overflowing my heart once again!  God bless all who read this testimony and may you too be transformed by His love as I was that blessed day in a garbage dump full of amazing, faithfilled, hospitable people in Nicaragua!  Smile
2/12/2010 11:38:29 AM
Andi United States
Andi
Wednesday night, mom asked me to go for prayer meeting in church, cuse i have nvr been to go to church/do good for almost years. While she was preaching about power of pray, i was under-influence at that time sat alone, ashamed, guilty, and paranoid. In the middle of gospel, she sang a song from Hymnal book, then at that time, God spoke to my ears "enough, I love you and I still want you" & He touched my heart. I felt the power of pray, i quit from abuse-substance and gradually build my broken spirit.
2/12/2010 11:39:01 AM
Sandy Gibbens United States
Sandy Gibbens
When I realized that God loves me was a moment that I had never had before and I just sit where I was and cried. However, I think we can have moments or really a life that amazes us about how much God really loves us. I have been a Christian for a long time but in the last few years I have had a lot of special moments when I realize God's special love for me. A lot of those moments are when I listen to a song that makes me stop and really think about God's love. We all need to just stop more often and realize how totally awesome His love is for us. How can any of us put into words how special God's love is for us or how none of us deserved Jesus dying on the Cross. We have so much to be thankful each and everyday but take so much for granted. Thank you Kelli for helping me to stop and have some of those special moments tonight. I always need the reconnection with God's love for me.
Sandy Gibbens
2/12/2010 2:12:10 PM
Philip Klonowski United States
Philip Klonowski
I listen to klove in my car while i work. see i am a delivery driver for a pizza place. well i heard you talkin today about the moment we see gods face and we just know that he loves you. well it is one in the morning now and am lying in my bed. (i was going to go to sleep) well i just have this feeling that god is getting ready to show me his face again. i have kinda walked away from god in this last almost 2 years. and he is about to jerk me back. the is so much hurt in my heart right now that all i can do is pray and cry to him. just give everything to him. i don't know where i am supposed to go in my life. but i am just out of strenght and just kinda drawing to the point of giving up. and i just am lying crying and god i don't deserve anything. please just do you will use me for whatever is your will. i just want to be in your arms and know that you are gonna take care of me and tathat everything will work. God i am yours and i give my all to you to just use.

I don't know what is going to happen from here or when my tears will stop coming and i will get some sleep. but please i just ask that you pray for me. and pray for gods will.
2/13/2010 4:46:11 AM
Sherry United States
Sherry
I hope I never forget that moment. I had been a Christian for more than 30 years. As a child I experienced repeated incest. One morning the Lord drew me to empty out those dark places in my heart where I didn't want to go.  As I went to a room alone to pray, my steps were heavy and my dread increased with each step.  I didn't want to face this issue.  But I went. And in my mind, God reminded me of that experience. It was as if I was back in that room as a child but there was no pain. And over in the corner, where it was dark and I couldn't see, I heard weeping. The Lord spoke to my heart that He had been with me...and He wept with me at what was being done. And ever since, I have known with a clarity that is indisputable, that God never, for one moment, for one split second, is unaware and unconcerned about our lives and our hurts.  I was delivered from the past that day, more than 30 years after the shame and pain. I was released into His love to walk free from who I was and into the woman He chose me to be.
2/13/2010 8:29:12 AM
Tiffany United States
Tiffany
I was in 10th grade, a was in a state of serious depression, but I hid my emotions from the world. It felt like no one could see into my heart, no one would give me the time of day to even ask me how I was doing, and it felt like my friends had turned there back on me. There was even a point that I thought it wasn't worth living anymore because I had no purpose. Then one day I was invited to a retreat and I almost didn't go. I met one person who actually cared about me and reached out to me, when no one else would. Through that person, I witnessed God's love and relaized he loved me so much, and he wouldn't abondon me. He sent me someone who saved my life. He showed me that I have a purpose.
2/13/2010 11:33:41 PM
Coty Goble United States
Coty Goble
The first time I really saw the face of the LORD was when I went back to church the first time since I had moved to Texas. I had just recently been involved in a serious motorcycle accident and my leg was crushed almost beyond repair to the eyes of the best surgeons in Texas. I was in a stage of my life living the wildest and most exotic "College Life" I could ever dream of. The LORD was calling out to me and I chose to turn and run from Him. Well, after the accident took place, I was stuck in my bed at home, alone, for a whole month. A whole month of which God chose to soften my heart. The first thing on my mind was that as soon as I could walk I had to go find God, so I went to the first place I thought He would be; church. The sermon the pastor was giving on that specific day was called "The Good Shepherd" and I had no idea what was coming. The pastor spoke about how shepherds of the old testament would break the legs of those sheep who were constantly wandering off, and how that would cause the shepherd to have to carry the sheep until his leg was heald, keeping him close to his heart so that the sheep would be used to being close to him and not want to wander off. I had never cried so hard in my life, that my shirt was wet from the tears. It brings me to joyous tears right now just talking about the day the LORD found me.
2/14/2010 12:36:45 AM
Melinda United States
Melinda
I was saved when I was 6. I went into the church youth group when I was in 7th grade and 13 years old. I was in that youth group less than 6 months before I walked away. I was bullied constantly. I was bullied in front of adults who did nothing. The last straw came one Wednesday night after youth worship. I was standing outside waiting on my mom to get out of choir practice. One of the older boys from the youth group came up and started talking to me. I talked to him for a few minutes and the tried to walk away. He pushed me agaisnt the building and began to touch me in ways I wasn't comfortable with and kissing me. I fought, I yelled, and eventually somebody from one of the houses near the church heard me. He pulled the boy off of me and I ran away. I never went back to that church. I stoped going to church and decided I didn't want God in my life if that was what went along with it. I got involved in the wrong crowd and started doing things I shouldn't have been doing. On my 14th birthday at a Friday night football game I had an experience that forever changed my life. I was with my friends and they started asking for money to buy drugs. They knew I had 50 dollars of birthday money and they started trying to get it from me. I wouldn't give it to them and they walked away and left me by myself. I sat down and began to cry. And I heard a voice say "You don't need them. They don't love you like I do. They only want to bring you down, I want to fullfil all your dreams! I want to make you the person I made you to be!" I walked home and told my parents as soon as I got in the house about what had happened that night after youth. I started going to another youth group and was rebaptized. His love is forever. It never changes no matter what we do!
2/18/2010 6:23:52 AM
glad United States
glad
My story could be alot better because I came to know Jesus at the age of 15. I was blessed with many of God's gifts. At age 20, I started hanging with the wrong crowds, and rather than me being the example in their life, I allowed them to be a bad example to me and was led farrrrr from God. I was so far from him, I thought there is no way he will ever have me back and so I didn't try. Last year though, he called me back, I was asleep and he woke me up and called my name. It was like someone turned the light on... I was in darkness and now I see again. I gave my life back to him again and he loves me still, even when I was lost he loved me. He was waiting for my return and I'm so grateful that he does love us all. His love was proven on the Cross!!
3/19/2010 4:48:34 PM
Amy United States
Amy
When I was 17 I asked to be baptized in my church because I thougt I should to give my life to Christ. Unfortunately, though, I was too imature to understand what that really meant. When I turned 19 I turned to the party crowd and started smoking and binge drinking all while trying to keep a "good girl" image on the outside...I was only fooling myself.  I moved to Germany and married when I was 29 so I would guess you could imagine how the binge drinking would skyrocket living in a culture that surrounds itsself in BEER! Knowing I had a problem, I told my husband that I had to quit. Beeing the good German that he was he couldn't understand how someone could not have control over their alochol consumption and didn't want to live with an alcoholic. I got no support from him and we were divorced within the year. He had an affair ending with pregnancy and an abortion.

I spent the next year or so drifting aimlessly around in an almost constant state of confusion. trying to pretend like I was keeping it together.
The sudden death of a dear family friend almost sent me over the edge. I found myself listening to the NICKELBACK song "Believe it or not" on an endless loop. The lyrics, "Can someone deliver me, show me some kind of sign, so close to giving up, 'cause faith is so hard to find" became my heartcry....And God heard and answered!

I was singing this song in deep dispair for about the 40th time one day and stopped dead when I read a vanity plate on someone's car that said "RMNS 10:9". I thought instantly to myself that I was crazy, that's not really a scripture verse. But I wrote it on my hand so that I could check into when I got home.

If you don't know this verse it reads "That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord", and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." Needless to say, I instantly rededicated my life to Christ and have never had another doubt who my Lord and Savior was, is and always will be! I asked for a sign, He showed me a license plate. I asked for deliverance, He gave me His Son. I was so close to giving up, He gave me a reason to live. My faith was hard to find, He proved He was there all along.

I thank Him and praise Him everyday now for His grace and Mercy! God whispers to us everyday,we need only to be still and listen! Blessing to you all!
3/22/2010 9:02:48 PM
Charles
Charles
Happened to me right after my grandmother died, I really missed her so  went to her grave to put some flowers there. I ran into the local prist there and we talked for like half an hour. It really made sense to me what he said about the afterlife and of all that. Since then I have been comming to his church about 1 time a month.

Best regards,
<a href="http://www.potty.name">Charles Potty</a>
5/25/2010 6:58:56 PM
Starlight United States
Starlight
My entire life had been focused on being "good enough" for God.  On day at church, our pastor invited us up front during worship to just lay down our lives.  There was a great struggle in my soul because I was afraid to give up control of my life, but God gave me the strength to let go.  At that moment, He said, "I am good enough for you.  It is not what you do that justifies you.  It is what I did on the cross.  All you need to do is just walk with Me.  I will carry you all the way.  Just trust Me."  That was the day my heart was born again.  He has lead me through all the highs and lows since then, and I am content to let His Goodness be enough for me.
11/30/2010 4:57:39 PM
Elizabeth Grace United States
Elizabeth Grace
I was crying my eyes out one evening after hearing my church servic talk about how some people just go through the motions and are not really living for God the way he wants us to live for Him. I was upset because I am a full time college student with two jobs who also takes care of my family constantly. By family, I mean my mother, younger brother, and anyone in my extended family or my friends that need me.  Often times, when I do have a Sunday free, I am so tired I just sleep in.  I try to wake up early, but I'm just exhausted. I cried out to God and asked if I am just going through the motions. I cried the entire trip in my car and when I got where to the store to buy some things for the house I calmed down and went about my weekend. That Suday, I realized that my receipt from Walmart had been $7.77.  This made me stop and think back on my weekend. I was in bed after another long weekend, and this reciept reminded me of some other things that happened. I had a TracFone at the time and had to refill it that weekend because I had 77.7 units left.  I also recalled that the lady at Sonic the several times I had to go there (our family is not able to eat out much, so I was going to surprise them with food. I had to go back to add some things I knew my family would like and because after I surprised them, they had a few more things they really wanted) had told me to have a blessed day, but I knew in my heart in those moments that she meant to say and wanted to say God bless you.  She was just being politically correct. God spent the entire weekend talking to me.  God spent the entire weekend assuring me that even though I may not be able to do things the way most Christians do, we are still close. He still loves me, and I do have a very real very unbreakable relationship with Him.  Oh, how I love our God.  He knows us and he loves us for who we are, tuly inspite of our imperfections. I of course cried for quite a while and was almost too excited to concentrate on reading my Bible that night.
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