The Moment

what song is this???

I have grown up knowing the Lord but the moment I felt a cry for him and felt him fill me with his AMAZING LOVE AND GRACE was when I was 16 years old at Sierra Bible Camp in California.  We were on a hike to the lake and our counselor had us write something we wanted to give to God on a piece of paper, then we put it in a balloon and filled it with helium and let it go!  We LET GO AND LET GOD!  From that moment I felt God literally hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay.  I cry now just thinking about it!  I have felt him that close ever since!  He has been my rock through some pretty tough times and I would not be here without his love and grace!  Thank you Lord for loving me that MUCH!

My "moment" was when I realized that my life had just changed.  I was in jail.  I lost my home, my job, my car, and my son. I was arrested for charges that were later dropped because my accuser just wanted to  "make a point" It was day 2 of 9 in jail that I realized this was a God-thing.  This was a controlled-burn, a Hebrews 12 experience.  God had bigger and better plans for me than I was willing to acknowledge and he simply refused to let me destroy my life.  I also learned that I was pregnant and the male that was part responsible simply walked away, no, he ran.  I made several appointments to terminate the pregnancy, but I couldn't follow through.  I'd done that before and I just couldn't do it again.  God brought me a great family that had just lost a baby and couldn't have any more.  I remember about two weeks before meeting them, I had written in my journal that this experience was nigger than me and that while this baby is not an answer to my prayers, he/she was an answer to someone's.  Bryce will be a year on the 18th and he looks just like me.  His parents are so happy and I am healing.

I can honestly say that the past two years have been more difficult than anything I have ever gone through in my life.  I can also say that I believe it was necessary for my personal growth and development and for the growth of those around me.  I am a better mom, a better person, a better friend, a better employee, a better daughter, sister...woman.  Everything in my life is so much better.  I still don't have my son back yet, but everything I do is for him and for our family to be reunited permanently and without interruption and I believe that will happen soon.  

My "moment" was this past August when God put a person on my path and I listened to her tell me how she leans on God when things are rough. I was having serious problems at work and met this person through the work I do. I told her I had thought I had a personal relationship with God in the past but didn't think God was listening or that he hated me. I felt as if God had left me like my ex husband had done. I had been angry with God; I had lost my marriage, a child, and was alone raising 4 children.  I realized by talking to the person I had met in August; that God has been listening to me, and has been there for me. I had closed my ears and eyes for the past 11 years. I am 47 yrs old and feel like a child discovering new things, my ears and eyes are open and I see God's blessings daily. I have 2 wonderful friends in my life now. The person who led me back to God has taught me what trust and support is all about.    

I was 5 yrs. old, with my father deployed overseas, I was terrified! Then Jesus called me and I responded. My life was changed that day. I LOVE the way Brittney puts it in her song!