When Mercy Found Me

When I was a sophomore in high school,I believed I truly found "the one" until he broke my heart.He used to do a lot of things that would hurt me,and I would to run away and hide. But,one day that boy hit me and I decided I need to be STRONG and stand up for myself...so I did. Im a junior in high school now,and God has made me face my problems and showed my that what he knows my desires and he will guide me to what I deserve.. That boy didn't deserve me..and that's my best blessing in disuse.

My blessing in disguise is that my husband and I are fostering twin boys. This may not sound special but it truly is ironic. I have a daughter through a previous marriage. We got divorced and I met my current husband, who is Godly and is wonderful to me and my daughter. That is a blessing as well. We have been married for close to 10 years and unable to have children it seems. At the beginning of our marriage, we discussed how great it would be to have twins. That hope went down the drain. I finished my college degree to become a teacher and while I was student teaching, I worked with twin boys that were foster kids. They ended up needing to be moved and we were just licensed for we were looking at adoption. We prayed about it and they have been with us not quite a full year now. It is amazing how God works!

All I can say is ....To God be the glory!  What I thought was everything I ever wanted, turned out to be my deepest regret. God knew and I just thought that I knew. When this man done all the evil that he could have possibly done( deceived,cheated, lied to me and about me,conned me out if all my inheritance and beat me up.) God picked me up. You see, I was serving Him with everything I had before this man from my past showed up. Then alittle each day I put God behind me untul He was nolonger first or everything in my life. This man didn't know Him nor did he want to. That should have been my first clue.But I thought I was the one eho would lead him to Christ.Not! He lead me away from Christ. It's not been an easy road back from the hell he left me in. But I can say that God is faithful!He is true to His Word. With Him, I have everything I need or want. Nov. 2010,I rededicated my life back to Jesus! That is the best thing that will ever happen to me. He will forever be my everything! Im happy knowing that He is all I have ro answer to and in the end,  the only One that really matters.

My marriage challenges have been a blessing in disguise.  We have had our share of them, some as bad as one can imagine.  However, when I look back, I can see that they have brought our relationship to a place that we otherwise would not be. God is so good, all the time.  He was with us through our hardships and is with us today.  Even at the worst time of our marriage, when each of us had given up, God had not.  He was still there with his perfect plan for our lives. He knew that our marriage would be restored and our family would remain intact.  I know that could only have happened through Him.  This August we will be married 20 years.  God has given us a blessing in disguise and I am eternally thankful!

My story is a little like yours, I know how you feel. I was married and after 4 years of wanting a child I had 2 misscarrags. But after that ,,I did get pregnent again and the doctor's thought he was in a place that I might have to abort him,,it scared me and I thought I'd never have one. But turns out ,,he was ok. I was soo happy. Now, I have been sick this whole time, can't keep anything in my tummy. I was in an out of the hospital several times. Doctors was saying that me an my husband were having knock down, drag outs. It wasn't true at all. I was just being pregnent.Then one day my doctor gave me some suppositories and I was good. All along I'm praying to God to please help me and make sure my baby gets the food he needs, and help me through all of this. My husband an I wanted this child sooo much. Then the doctors said we have to get you off the medicne. Well, I went into the hospital again, to get me off the meds. I am always praying to God,,please help me. After 3 or 4 days,,I can't remember how many days I was in there. Then I could eat without throwing up. Thank God, he answered my prayers. So I go home,,doing great. Then one day I was sitting on the side of my bed, I started praying,, I said God, I'm scared, My doctors was telling that my baby might not have any arms or legs or be sickly because of me having to take the meds that they gave me. I asked Jesus to let my child be healthy and have everything be ok. I asked if I could be awake to see my baby born, And help me with the pain. Then all of a sudden, it was like someone was standing in that room with me,, he told me,,Don't worry about your baby, it's going to be ok. I;ll take away halph your pain. Ater he was gone,,,tears was rolling down my face and the weight was off my shoulders. I was happy and releived. I felt so different, because he didn't have to send someone,, but he did. When I went into labor,, everything he told me was what happened. He was there and took care of me and my baby [ boy ] 6 pounds 14 onces,,all his fingers an toeswas there and,my mom was in the room, watching me giving birth to her second grandson. That was the most beauitfulest day of my life. I love,jesus,and, God with all my heart! If not for him, I don't know what I'd done. He was with me every step of the way! My son is now 27 and has a son of his own.