Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9
I admit to you yesterday, I wasn't very courageous. Doubt and fear had me feeling like I was trapped in quicksand. I couldn't breathe, I was shaking. I was trying to take a step forward in my life to create a permanent, stable home for my children. I'm buying a house, as a single parent, it scares me to death.
Yesterday, I had to put down the money at the Title Company. Money, I've been saving for a moment like this. Money, that at that moment, I really wanted to hold on to.
After praying with a friend at the office, calling friends to get reassurance, I got the gut to walk my shaking self into a title company with a check.
As I sat down in the office, there was this full-of-life woman that was on the other side of the desk. She just started chatting it up me, telling me about her daughter, and how she raised her, by herself. I told her, "I get it, I'm a single mom too."
At that moment she turned around looked at me, got the biggest smile on her face and said, "you are my favorite kind of client." She explained how the office was full of single moms that have bought homes. She encouraged me that I was doing the right thing, we cried, and hugged... at a Title Company!
She was my angel that God used to remind me that His promises are real. As I walked out of that office with my sunglasses on to hide the tears in my eyes of joy and accomplishment, I remembered that Courage isn't just a nice idea, it's a command.
I can't find anywhere in the bible where it commands us to be weak and safe. But, over and over again we are reminded to be strong and courageous.
I've heard it said that, "Courage isn't the absence of fear, it's having fear and moving forward anyway."
So, just like I can walk in a Title Company scared to death to buy a house on my own, you can face that thing that is gripping you in fear too. Whatever you do, MOVE FORWARD!